Natasha Sajé

poems from new manuscript

 

 

 

 

B

 

 

 

 

Boar, whose flesh makes a delectable sauce for papardelle, whose long teeth could crunch a human hand but whose temper is kept in check rooting truffles under oak trees. After 300 years wild boar are breeding again in the British countryside. Bones: the human body and the pig’s both contain 208, more or less, human extras usually lodged in the hand (phallanges) or the foot (tarsals), while the pig’s vertebrae can fuse to ribs, making counting problematic. Remember your fetal pig in high school, its veins and arteries pumped full of red and blue plastic, formaldehyde lingering under your fingernails? Pigs make intelligent (and demanding) pets, although obesity can be a problem.  The Devil is often shown with a cloven foot. The herd of swine and devils perished in the waters. The sowe freten the child right in the cradel.  A boar’s dark bristles make an excellent hairbrush, picking up dust better than plastic, scratching the scalp the way the pig itself might enjoy its chin scratched. My recipe for deviled ham would make you weep. Beelzebub=Lord of the Flies=Satan’s right-hand-man=Demon of Gluttony. Francis Bacon wrote prose clean as bones. His descendant painted men to look like pigs.

 

                                                                           

 

                                                                            

 

published in POOL

 

 

 

 

 


E

 

 

essay, to try, from exagiare, to weigh out, examine

 

I was eleven and watching the Galloping Gourmet with his British-Australian accent and his glass of wine

 

learning how to get juice out of a lemon by rolling it hard on the counter 

 

when the doorbell rang

 

my hair around cans to make it straight

 

the man next door, his receding hair combed back

 

erminea, the weasel whose fur turns from brown to white in winter

 

asked if anyone else were home

 

I said no

 

edentate, lacking teeth

 

asked if he could come in

 

electric, from Greek, elektron, amber, because it produces sparks when rubbed

 

I said no, I’m sorry

 

euphemism, to speak with good words

 

we stood     eye to eye

 

eutrophic: a body of water with so much mineral & organic matter the oxygen is reduced

 

until I slowly shut the door in his face

 

Eve, from Hebrew, living

 

pushing with both hands

 

 

 

 

Published in Prairie Schooner

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

F

 

 

Firethorn: a trope for

Fucking, which people talk entirely too much about, the

Flurry of phonemes a substitute,

Foucault would say.  I’m beginning to be

Free of it. Reading

Feldenkrais makes me blush, how much it mattered.  I’d rather swim than

Fornicate. Laura asks, how often? It depends what you mean by sex, I say. I never

Fetishized, was never caught in

Flagrante delicto. 

Forget the times I’d pull to the side of the road

For some, heating up at 30

Farenheit outside.  It’s a

Falcon honing in on a nest of mice, a venomous

Fang, a

Farce in Braille and Esperanto. And

Freud, was he ever wrong! About inversion, envy, and hysteria. O

Faucet I’ve turned to a trickle, o

Fracas muffled in silk, I don’t give a

Fig—your furor and fuss have

passed, o bittersweet.

 

 

 

Published in Beloit Poetry Journal

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

H

 

 

O how we hanky panky harum

scarum in our happy home, dancing hootchy

kootchy. Sure, it makes for hugger mugger

but we give a hoot for happenstance.

The yard is full o’ hound and hares; the door

adorned by hammer and sickle; in the closets, hand-

me-downs. If Hammurabi and his Queen come

by, we won’t be hoity-toity,  we’ll

offer haggis or humble pie.  Our bed

floats on hocus-pocus (our corpore

wholly habeas) while the kitchen hums

a hymn, Hail to Higgledy-Piggledly. 

If  the world can’t find our hurly burly hunky

dory, let it hara kiri if it dares.

 

 

 

 

 

 

Published in POOL

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

N

 

 

Normal: Latin, norma,  a carpenter’s square

 

No, non, nein, na, no, nah, näo, nee, ne, nei, nil, no, no, nu, nope, nej, nyet, nnyaa, no, non, nay, never, nei, nie, nope, nou, negative, nenni, not on your life, nå, no, no, no…

 

 

 

 

Published in Prairie Schooner

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

O

 

O say can you see?

oil: 20 million barrels daily, half imported

not soluble in water, as in crude & ocean don’t mix

 

one-quarter of the world’s consumption, not

to be confused with zero or oh or

ortho, Greek, straight or correct

 

when the rockets give way

to petroleum (from rock), under the surface of the earth

oil: once from olive, to gain sudden wealth, to bribe, to make easy

 

our proud oasis (ouahe, Coptic, dwelling area)

a direct address to God, the mouth open in astonishment

our flammable last gleaming

 

 

 

Published in POOL

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

P

 

 

Peccadillo. The animal I touched at age four, the animal I didn’t recognize to be a rat. I commit them every day. I am not the Pope, love like garlic emanating from my pores. Who would keep a pangolin for a pet? The pink fairy pichiciego dies in captivity. The serpent Python fell only after a thousand silver arrows from Apollo’s bow, whose prowess changed Mount Parnassus into a place of music and light, transfixed him. For the Lord has chosen Jacob unto himself and Israel for his peculiar treasure.  His “peculiar” treasure, privately owned, from pecu, cattle. When owning cattle meant being rich. Is ownership sin? Latin, peccare, to sin. Our peculiar institution produced slaves worth six billion dollars. There’s a difference between owning human beings and owning cattle. The latter we eat, like pecans, from the Cree, pakan, that which is cracked with a stone. A New World nut, so rich in oil, undomesticated until 1846. 

 

 

 

 

Published in The Gettysburg Review

 

 

 

 

Q

 

 

A Phoenician letter the Greeks discarded, having no use in their language for a Semitic sound. If the soul has a qualm, the body shows it.  The body queries what it means to be true. Quilty! Humbert’s doppelgänger—a sack of feathers? Another name for the quill of a feather is calamus, from Greek, kalamos, reed. Who first filled a quill? The Phoenician Q meant qoph, monkey, its tail lingering in the language. I propose introducing some English words that use Q, but not U, naming new conditions that will kill Scrabble players, among others: qib, the eye disorder that results from staring too long at a computer screen; qell, the nausea that accompanies the mixing of incompatible therapeutic drugs; and qatch, the moment before the articulation of a sound, that split second when the brain tells the throat and tongue to speak.

 

 

Published in The Gettysburg Review

Š

 

at the room of a sleeping child, a finger to the threshold

 

teeth drawn together

            hissing softened by lips

            echoed in the cave

 

little roof (strešica)

 

difference between a chocolatier (Kraš) and lime-

            stone (kras), white rocks

            struck by moon

 

as in sugar

which can be made from beets, cane, corn, maple, fruit, milk, and blood

 

its sweetness rhymes with bees

 

we say one thing is not another thing

and in this language every letter is pronounced

 

cup gathering a drop of sound

 

            dusty taste of the water

 

            filmed skin after walking in the river

 

            sound the residue of letters

 

I’d like a letter that splinters

 

language from its parents to build

a house of sticks overlooking the sea, letting waves

instruct me—air

rushing through my teeth is also air

that could have passed through the tailpipe of a bus

 

I want happiness without a hole in it, the heroine says,

and the reader knows she’s doomed to a life of fissures

 

subterranean, so deep you can live in them, deeper than the highest

mountains are high, stalactites forming overhead

gypsum flowers like wallpaper

 

in such darkness the pale pink

olm, his degenerated eyes covered

by skin, can live to a hundred

 

wan cousin of the newt or salamander

finds his way via smell

 

even Proteus, shepherd of the sea’s flocks, cannot

protect him from polluted groundwater

and his own rarity

 

he lives only in one place on earth

a place where š is uttered

 

and might, if things were different, be

a dragon in the ocean’s waving

 

fricative, or at least a snake with a crown

 

            none poisonous in this quiet country

 

 

                                                                                    Slovenia

 

 

 

Published in the Denver Quarterly

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

T

 

 

Ursula is sure hybrids are sterile, like mules. I say 

ligers and tigons, those spotted and striped hybrid cats,

aren’t healthy, and they’re confused about whether to hunt alone

 

or in packs, but they can breed.  We’re arguing in a restaurant

in Trieste: Ursula’s Italian is better and I’m sure

couscous is semolina, just bigger, although I don’t know

 

what constitutes a species, whether Australopithecus

is the same as Cro Magnon. Each of us thinking, boy, I’m glad

I’m not married to her. Is our quarrel scientific

 

she wants things fixed, I like them open?  Or about names

and groups—the threshold of language? Faith exists in a world

where every day someone’s painting quail heads black or cloning

 

a baby. Why argue if there’s no money or land at stake,

is it just talk?  The city’s Austro-Hungarian

and Italian, Alpine and Mediterranean,

 

with a beach that separates men and women by

an eight foot wall built into the sea. Ursula photographed

me among the half-naked bodies, ridiculous in my

 

sunhat and shorts. Yet I’m invisible to the women,

like a pigeon I don’t count, and neither do they, to me.

Eighty years ago, James Joyce and Italo Svevo—

 

Irishman and Italian-Austrian Jew—did they debate

Darwin? Did they stiffen their necks, gesticulate knives, 

someone always speaking a foreign tongue? Ursula’s from

 

Bern, and my German’s shot with English, or should I say

American. The German for hybrid and sterile is close

to English—it’s fertile that won’t come to me. Mule is esel,

 

jackass. That beach suggests a different century, not

lesbian monkeys and the error of the gametic

binary, but categories crisp as breadsticks. Maybe

 

lions and tigers shouldn’t be bred. Ursula and I

are crow and jay, squawking at each other from across

the table. Taxonomy, from taxis, order, not from tax,

 

tangere, touch.

 

 

 

 

Published in the Gettysburg Review

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

V

 

                        veritas:  not behind the veil of sky

but the moving veil itself

fox and its ears hanging upside down

virus carried say by civet cats from animal to human

and back in the form of vaccines

Van Dyck moved from Belgium

to England to Italy to England  carrying

some melancholy elegance intact   

his royal subject later deposed  by the very principle

that permits a husband to divorce a wife

permits a country to divorce its rulers

beheading merely a cruel flourish

Milton’s vade mecum were faith

and verse, from vertere, to turn    

two fingers spread as a sign 

or digits severed at the joints   

any search for abiding truth doomed

as a beautiful city built on water

viewed through windows on the way to the dungeon

                       

 

Published in Prairie Schooner
Y

 

 

 

1.      Dispensible in sound, a substitute.

2.      In 1878 a silvery metal was discovered in a feldspar quarry in the village of Ytterby, Sweden.

3.      I have never visited Sweden but would like to, preferably not in winter.

4.      How lovely to curl up with a book when the weather turns bad.

5.      43% of adult women in Guinea smoke cigarettes, 19% in Sweden and 11% in South Africa which also leads the world in rapes.

6.      In Sweden rape is extremely rare.

7.      80% of American women my age work (outside the home, as they say), compared to  94% in Sweden.

8.      Barley fields. Sugar beet plants. Saab and Volvo factories.

9.      Tomas Transtőmer sitting down to play—what was it, Haydn?

10.  Sweden is ranked 2nd for human development, after Norway.

11.  Speech is irreversible.

12.  Rare, soft, malleable and ductile, ytterbium metal has possible use in improving the grain refinement, strength, and other properties of stainless steel.

13.  No use getting excited unless it’s a sure thing.

14.  The life expectancy in Sweden is 80 years of age.

15.  My friend died of liver failure, from hepatitis, from a blood transfusion in college.

16.  1953-1989.

17.  Her father, an army officer, would not let her sue the army hospital.

18.  She played the bass in a blues group in the Village.

19.  The other players old, black men.

20.  In every language the question comes first.

21.  She could have disobeyed him.

22.  nevertheless   and despite this   up to the present time   at some future time  besides     in addition   for the present   now  up to a specified time   still    thus far   eventually  in   the time remaining    even     still more

23.  She was the first of my friends to use cocaine.

24.  We can’t all be Bolsheviks, someone said to me at one of her parties.

25.  She was a steelworker at Exxon in New Jersey.

26.  She was raped. In whose memory does this matter?

27.  The yin is passive, representing moon and shade, the female.

28.  In the last two years of her life she tried to get pregnant.

29.  In a signature the tail, the almost ending, the sensual lower zone.

30.  The diminutive: Jane-y.

31.  She was ashamed of being well read.

 

 

 

 

 
Published in Puerto del Sol

 

 

 

 

Z

 

 

Praise the striped skin of the wild ass for circling eternity.

Praise the seventeen year cicadas of 1987 and 2004 and 2021 and....

Let men and women of the world sleep in noiseless peace.

Let them purple their teeth on this wine.

Let them leave sober and in high spirits.

Let coyotes find enough to eat without cats.

Let these weevils chew cheatgrass.

Let the west wind blow away small and despised worries.

Praise the stars and whoever can call any by name.

Let no one’s idea of God extinguish that of someone else.

Blame the prophets for instilling apocalyptic fervor in human hearts.

Praise the ability to open and close and open and close….

Let women roam where they like.

Praise the hills where ideas of God melt like wax.

Let inflated machines be held aloft by the color blue.

Let the hooves of deer disperse seeds over barren earth.

Let the voices of many be heard over the noise.

Expect nothing. Neither blame nor praise.

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

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